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January, 2010:

Beat the night

I pulled an all-nighter last night, for work. It’s pretty rare for me these days, since as I get older, the more it really fucking sucks to recover from it. I think it’s been years since I stopped working when it got light outside.

Disregarding eating, going to the bathroom, and commuting, I was working 23 out of 24 hours. Someone should give me a medal. And a pillow.

Back in high school, when I first did all-nighters (unlike many people, my later high school courses were university-level, except I had to take 7 academic classes at a time instead of university’s 5, which was fine since I wasn’t having any sex yet anyways) I would spend the day in a daze, drinking herbal tea. Don’t know why; that barely has any caffeine. But somehow I managed it.

In university, specifically near the end when I was finishing my computer science degree, I started having strange sleep-deprivation-induced hallucinations. These were often spiders or insects (either one large one, or a flying swarm of something) but strangely also severed heads. I don’t know about the severed heads, but the insect stuff is supposedly documented as being common. It’s trippy once you realize you’re just imagining it.

Last night’s work resulted in my afternoon nap including a really detailed lesbian dream. So now sleep deprivation is making me gay, great. The other chick in the dream was really hot, but I didn’t really know what to do, since she didn’t have a penis. It was a real cock-tease of a dream, especially since it didn’t contain any cock whatsoever.

The local radio station that wakes me up every morning (well, except this morning when I was just putting my head down when it went off) seems to be playing a lot of my Grade 5 soundtrack this week, to remind me of a time when I got my 8-9 hours every night:

(Interesting to Dad, the guy above is from Sheffield.)

(Songs about Americans always seem to be written or sung by Canadians.)

Arts education plus prescription painkillers

(Strange things happen when you combine a BA with codeine-like substances.)

Man, I usually don’t need a news article to make me feel like an inbred mutant, though up until reading it I had considered my grey-blue eyes to be rather nice and that despite being nearsighted were my best attributes when my tits aren’t visible. But maybe now I’m supposed to recogize them as the aberration they are and feel ashamed.

With this knowledge and forgetting myself for a minute I have a sudden desire to reexamine the Oedipus tragedy, for did he not, upon discovering that his wife was also Mumsy, gouge out his eyes with her dress pins? I bet his eyes were blue, while he still had them anyways.

Moving to other body parts, I’ve also been watching Dumbo again and seeing it as an expose on race relations in the US. I’m not talking about the representation of the crows (that’s obvious!), but of Dumbo himself. My theory is that the backstory has Mrs. Jumbo getting drunk one night (seems to be common enough at that circus:

) and waking up the next morning next to an African elephant who wasn’t her husband (or, that’s what she told Mr. Jumbo later). And lo and behond, 22 months later the stork brings her a baby elephant with big African elephant ears, and she’s like, how’d that get there? And then she’s shamed by her peers and Jumbo Jr’s taken away from her. And he only redeems himself in society by becoming a magic negro elephant who can fly. So really this whole story is just a parable about the unacceptance of mixed-race relationships and the mistreatment of “half-breed” children in a 20th century dual-race society. Interestingly, though, none of the other elephants ever argued that he wasn’t born in the US.

Isn’t it a shame I didn’t do arts grad school?

Friday Cat Blogging: My soul mate

I am destined to marry this guy:

Yes, it’s just a commercial, but without hope, there is nothing.

So I’ve been sick with a cold for nearly 2 weeks now, and despite having the alarm clock blaring as loud as usual in the mornings, I’ve been sleeping through at least half an hour of it every day this week. As my cat is used to me getting up and turning off the horrid rock station soon after it starts, she’s resorted to clawing at my face as an added wake-up technique. I guess she doesn’t like Kings of Leon on repeat, which pretty much describes that local radio station in the mornings.

Music Suggestions

I gots some.

Yeasayer is one of my favourite bands, making indie rock with a world music vibe and a healthy emphasis on percussion. I’ve probably mentioned them before, but now they’ve got a new album coming out and I totally didn’t get a leaked copy and listen to it and think it is awesome. Nope.

Here’s the video from their first single, “Ambling Alp” (which you can download for free from the band’s website here). Sadly I couldn’t find a version on Youtube where the boobies weren’t blurred out. Shame.

It’s not what they normally do, but this album has a love song, even. Feel free to ignore the fan-made video:

I just discovered that “Odd Blood” doesn’t come out until next month, so, um, if you enjoyed these songs I hope you don’t mind waiting!


I know absolutely nothing about The Automatic but I found this video on an mp3 blog a while back. I can’t quite decide if it turns me on or off, and whether or not I want to eat meat ever again. The song is quite catchy, though it’s maybe too radio-friendly for my eclectic taste and may be relegated to my workout mixtape.


Shearwater‘s got a new album coming out, the first single being “Castaways” (no official video yet, just a static image):

When people ask me to recommend relaxing music I usually mention these guys, because the lead singer could sing me to sleep every night and make my life complete. I don’t normally like concert recordings but often go back to the one they did for NPR’s All Songs Considered. Shearwater was founded by two dudes who left Okkervil River to do quieter songs, so if you’re a fan of the latter you might like them too.

You can get “Castaways” for free at their label’s website, and their album “The Golden Archipelago” is set to be released on February 23. Shit, I really should be recommending albums that are out now, shouldn’t I?


I was going to recommend Freelance Whales, but their album doesn’t drop until late March.


Here we go: Dear Leader‘s album “Stay Epic” came out in September 2009, but I just heard about them recently. Except they don’t seem to have anything on Youtube. Oh well.

Just forget I said anything.

The mention about moisturizer is not a joke

I’m referring to the current tagline on my blog, ending “now in the temperate desert of the Okanagan where moisturizer is much more important”. A few people have commented on it without realizing that, actually, keeping my skin moisturized has become a really big deal for me, far more so than when I lived in Vancouver. I had no idea.

Back in my former coastal rainforest life, moisturizer was something I wore mostly in winter, and then just around my nose (where skin would get flaky for some reason). Come late fall I’d go rummaging through my toiletries collection for the hand lotion, which I’d then forget about in the spring. The “cold” (I now no longer consider Vancouver winter to have that, though I did at the time) would make my knuckles raw.

I had peppermint foot lotion from The Body Shop, sort of as a personal tradition because I used to massage my feet with it as a kid when I got foot cramps. I hardly ever used it in adulthood, yet always had a bottle on hand to remind me of my lost youth.

Body lotion and body butter (butter? Am I toast?) were these bottles and jars I’d get as gifts from people and never use. Whenever I’d have to clean out the cupboard under the bathroom sink I’d find an array of these items and feel a bit guilty for never touching them; but I had a theory that these were entirely unnecessary cosmetics, at best just another version of perfume.

No more. Good thing I didn’t throw them all out when I moved to Kelowna.

I noticed the climate difference instantly when I got here in August. It was summer, but I had to start using the face moisturizer right away. And hand lotion. And that peppermint foot lotion, not that it helped that much. I just dried all up, like a raisin. When it got colder, I noticed dry skin on my legs for the first time ever: hence the discovery of the purpose for body lotion.

I kept waking up coughing at night, and was finally able to use that humidifier I’d bought years ago but hadn’t used in ages because it had made my bedroom so humid that water was dripping off the furniture, and it didn’t help my colds anyways. Now it just makes things comfortable (and helps my skin), and I’ve been running mine every day since I got sick last week.

Oh, and my hair! When I was in Vancouver over New Years and it was pissing down with rain most of the time, my hair curled up from all the humidity and I realized how much my hair had changed in Kelowna. It comes out boringly straight, here, and I’m rather depressed by that, because it looks kind of dumb straight when it’s been curly or wavy as far back as I can remember. The dry air also brings static electricity and all the tiny, half-grown hairs tend to stick up, too; I wondered if maybe my hair was damaged until a stylist said no, it’s just the weather.

One rather silly result of this newfound need for skin products has had me drop mega cash at Sephora when I’m in Vancouver. My favourite moisturizer so far is Hope In A Jar, and not just because I find the name hilarious. I also have fancy and expensive versions of hand and body lotion, but their names don’t generate a sense of yearning so there’s no point mentioning them.

I have yet to find a good hair conditioner, though; my usual Fructis doesn’t really cut it here anymore, as Kelowna’s water is harder than I’m used to and my hair is still pretty tangled when I exit the shower. (Can you guys recommend anything?)

So, yeah. I guess my limited experience outside of BC’s coast meant I had no idea how climate affected my skin, hair and health. It’s just not something I would have thought about, though perhaps my surprise makes me a bit of a dumbass. But there you have it, that’s why I mention it in my blog’s title. Don’t neglect your skin, peeps.